I have only recently come to realise
Not only did I lose my husband when he died
But I lost the person I could follow
And who I am today is only a shadow
Of what I was as a wife.
My chest thickens
My eyes fill
My voice chokes on his name
Death is so final
Really horrible
What devastation it brings.
In truth I did not lose my husband
Lost persons can sometimes be found
I cannot find him
He died
Gone forever
I am the one who’s bereft
Lost without him.
Love is a fragile, strong strand
That passes through death’s doorway
And that love strand reaches me today
Supports me as I continue my way
Because he only took with him
What he had so freely given away
His love.
